cyrell benally is my life:

1) I was fixing something on the carpet when out of nowhere a hand jets out in front of me...whose hand you ask??? CYRELL PRINCESS BENALLY! (it was a moment to be lived really...not so much read)

2) cyrell tells me he went to the zoo this weekend, when i asked him what he saw at the zoo he named a few animals but for the last one he turned around, stuck his but out at me and said, "the one that goes.... poooooooot on you" .....i just stared. he then said, "you know the one that is stinky!" i just stared again. i'm not sure if i figured out it was a skunk or if he ended up telling me- regardless this was the highest point of my day =o)

I LOVE YOU CYRELL !



an event which i was not expecting today...:

the child in my class who had been physically abused in the fall starting crying today (which is NOT normal for him) after my aid was harsh to him during math centers. i took him outside and asked him if what my aid said hurt his feelings...he said no...(i was surprised yet happy that he was responding to me) ..i then asked if someone at home made him feel upset....he nodded yes. this was the point, this was the freakin point

ARE YOU SERIOUS? ARE YOU STILL EMOTIONALLY AND/OR PHYSICALLY ABUSING YOUR CHILD???? WHAT THE FUCK MAN??? YOU DON'T DESERVE THE TITLE OF FATHER.

that is what i want to tell his dad. i then asked if his dad had hit him..thank the LORD he said no. I then asked if his dad got mad at him or called him stupid...this is when he nodded yes...

AGAIN WHAT THE FUCK MAN YOUR CHILD IS 5- BACK OFF!

my student frequently inverts his letters and numbers and i'm sure this is what frustrated his dad. and then my aid (as usual) became frustrated with him for not writing his numbers correctly..and that is what set him off. i knew something was wrong because when i asked him a question he just stared blankly into space...looking like he needed to let go of some pain he had been holding onto all day =( what the hell????????i want to take this child home and TAKE CARE OF HIM. let me raise him for the time i am here..because clearly the shit which is happening at home is not going to cut it. DON'T MESS WITH MY KID. i hate this for my student..i hate it. what do i do? do i confront mom? if i do, she will probably tell him to stop telling me anything that happens at home. do i go to the counselor who in the fall was wary of reporting the abuse case? who the crap do i go to???? its not fair damn it. life is not fair.

i love him. i don't want him to be scared of his family. i don't. i really don't.