so my anger has cooled off a bit....ah life. ah life experiences. why do i need to deal with this shit when i am already so far from my comfort zone? these are the moments when i can either step it up or wallow in self pity...i'm going to go ahead and not pick the latter... my aid is crazy, the other kindergarten teacher is crazy, my emotions are crazy...ah damn. i wish their was a meditation pill: automatic peace. cultivating a peace of mind is difficult when one is hit incessantly with events that shake one's being.

ima try. ima make it through. God will give me the strength to learn and grow. I am thankful (am trying to be) for this opportunity to learn from all that is surrounding me and trying to push me away from happiness. ima rise above this shit.

step 1) monday morning i am going to speak directly and assertively to my aid concerning her temper and voice in the classroom
step 2) find a dance class to join
step 3) get cyrell to draw me another picture of his future wedding dress (the one he drew in December he took home so i was unable to capture it with my camera) ...did i write about this? ...just in case..
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Cyrell had one day drawn a beautiful princess (he will usually draw princesses or fairies)....on this particular day he asked me to come and view his drawing..I asked him who the girl in his picture was... and he responded with the following:

"This is me on my wedding day and this is my dress"

and that was the best day of my life